Invasion

Posted on 1st October 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational

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Invasion is what we feel, once we see that we have been deceived.

I feel that an “Invasion” process within us happens very often. In myself, I have realized and come to terms with invasions, I allowed in my life.

Having feeling invited within, is a difficult feeling. Especially once you realized it was all created by yourself.

I struggled alot emotionally and mentally. I had to find the cause of me allowing “Invasions”. Invasions to me is; when something lays within your mind and heart. That something then created guilt, hurt, pain, and suffering.

The invasion was something that I needed to “coupe” with, but alone. It was a visious cycle and I felt that I needed to get out of it, in some odd way. It was like a burning feeling in my gut, and i knew that i had to listen.

When I made ammends with my pain, guilt, hurt and pain. I became another person. I became something that I have always wanted. It was a life altering and life changing decision. I am very glad I made that choice.

In my transition, i had left a lot of individuals behind. I am not alone, but those chosen to stay around me, are more than just a family to me. I know they are the split image of me, and I hold them extremely close to my heart.

I dont feel guilty in any of my decisions, as I walk cautiously.

The invasion I once felt, is completely gone.

I am fearless.

I have Strength.

I have prosperity in all ways.

I am an achiever.

These are only a few things that I always wanted and now have. I have the freedom my Creator has given me.

I can only express, that my changes, in life are breathtaking and blissful.

Do not let the invasion within your hearts get the best of you.

Stand up for what you believe.

Be awake and aware at all given times.

Love your neighbor as you love thy self.

Never be selfish and always be giving.

If you are having a good day, make it an excellent day.

Lets all make a difference within ourselves and tell the invasion “Its over” and create a new loving day.

 

 

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Life after Death

Posted on 26th September 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational, Self motivation

Life after death is confusing, but a very beautiful one!!

When I kissed myself goodbye, I had a mourning process. One like, a death of a family member.

I started to feel at a complete loss. One that overtook my body and my mind. I found myself crying and feeling sad. It felt as if a family member was in the midst of dying and I am awaiting for their depart. It felt really sad.

I remember asking my friend Colleen, “why is it that I feel sad? Why do I feel as if I am pre-mourning a death”. It seemed as life was different in a very odd way. It was like, entering a new world and an unknown one.

I felt changes within my life. I started to realize my life was in a great alteration mode. A mode that makes me feel more of a self reliant person,with a feeling of conquer in my world. I love the altered me.

I have found my journey to be quite amazing.

Death now is a memory. All of those that were left behind in my death has now permanently stayed in that category, unless we are like-minded.

I believe that when individuals unite and spend beautiful and important time together, they cherish and enjoy time. I believe the time does not need to be with those that you were programmed to be with or in your comfort category. Opening up different paths will prevail. Having like-minded mentors, or a mentor in a higher category that is trustworthy.

Being able to move forward in life, is one step closer to yourself .

Be the “True” you and don’t let anyone take that away from you!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Life within

Posted on 21st September 2011 in Inspirational, Self motivation

 

Life within is what you need to love unconditionally!

Life within is totally opposite or way different than your outer life. It seems, when we get down deep into meditation with ourselves, we see the dares we should’ve done, the “I wish I said that”, and our dreams. We seek within us what we would love to possess with out. We think of plenty of pleasures and excitement, that we forget where our foundation came from. We become overwhelmed with life and fun that we forget to love ourselves. Then guilt starts to set in and we start to depart from our inner-selves.

At times we all feel that despair. A cry for hope, love and some kind of freedom. We desire to create something wonderful within our lives and feel the emotions. We believe that everything is possible and we start with the impossibilities. If we count all the impossibilities within our lives, you would be amazed upon your own statistics of, ” How I judge me, I don’t love me, I am ugly, etc..” We then are not motivated and we are kept in the same cycle over and over again. We don’t change. We stay the same.

If you don’t change, who will change for you? No-one, we all know that. (We expect people to change)

If you don’t love you, who could love you? No-one, we all know that. (We expect for other people to love us and fill that void.. Besides they are the only ones that can withstand you, at the moment)

If you don’t deserve yourself, then who do you expect to deserve you? No-one will!! Simple

When you change your inner life, your inner soul, you will feel a beautiful change in your outer world. It will feel like you were coupe’d up in a room and you opened up a window and felt a cool but warm spring breeze. You look out of the window and smile. That is the foundation of happiness within your outside world.

You will have an amazing inner life and a fantastic outer world. You will glow and draw attention to the world. You will feel confidant and want to be the person you are. You will feel a great feeling of love towards nature. You will want to watch what you eat and your figure. You will become less attracted to the material world but attractive to everyone around you.  You will feel whole and at peace. You will be at one with yourself and you will see that you are a very beautiful person..

If no-one tells you, you are beautiful……. I will be the first to say and always say it regardless who you are……

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!

 

Sunflower of love.

 

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Stoned Man

Posted on 5th September 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational

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If you have never sinned before, throw the first stone NOW !!

Did anyone really throw a stone?

I don’t believe so, if you are a non-sinner, it’s first nature not to judge (Duhhh, LOL I had to say it). Non-sinners respect and accept those that are different. Non-sinners love everyone endlessly, even if they are at fault. Non-sinners know the “Golden” truth.

Walking away is the best policy.

A lot of us tend to point at others for what they do or what they say. We like to tell people how crazy someone’s lifestyle is and how they should change their actions to something more appropriate. We then tend to think that they should not think that way as this is not, what society has taught us.

Why do we assume these things??.

Is it due to believing that everyone else thinks this way??

 But, do they?

When I hear gossip, I know this is not the kind of group I want to hang out with in the future.

These individuals are insecure of themselves and their inner being and they can’t handle someone else’s lifestyle.  Most likely its either because their insecurities tell them that they should not even think about doing something like this or they may have a hidden desire and fear facing their truth. Facing a truth is harder than any other judgement in this world, especially when it pertains to our own-selves.

Pointing out the truth and faults that we have in ourselves is far more hurtful than we can image. Letting go of the past and accepting your new future is hard for a lot of people that are only used to one lifestyle or way of thinking. Altering what we believe is harder then  convincing yourself to pee in a cup for a nurse.

Altering your mentality to who you really are will surprise you. You will see the inner you transform to something so beautiful and powerful you will be dumbfounded in what you can achieve.

A stoned man needs to be left in the past. A person that cannot move on from a situation, will never succeed, as it is a “Distraction”entertained by yourself and you feel as if you were in  a chaotic place with little light. People will continue to dwell on the past instead of letting it go. Sometimes I wonder if we like hurting ourselves over and over by thinking about our past hurt, guilt and pain. We never let them go, yet we are the first ones to ask our creator for help but become an “Indian giver” (Meaning: giving something to someone and taking it back after giving) and never let it go. We decide to hold on to our sufferings. We start to feel hopeless as we do not see a change in our lives. We don’t even realize that we took our request back from our creator. This is why no-one sees hope and we convert them into hopeless efforts.

Everyone is a stoned man at one point in their life, unless you were raised in a non-egoistic atmosphere and lived as such since the first time you remember breathing. We stone ourselves for the stupidest reasons and we hang on to those as well. We begin to look like Santa Claus at Christmas time but instead of gifts, we have a bag full of baggage (guilt, pain, hatred, materialistic,feeling lonely…etc).

An true awakened stoned being is, Strong, Self dependent,Observant, Analytic, and being limitless. A true awakened stoned being comes out of his shell and conquers his inner soul, being, and surroundings. A true awakened stoned being becomes a rock inside and knows  the inner power in their mind and the power of being fearless..

Lets all unite as Powerful true awakened stoned beings and become a peaceful and maintain awareness as it was intended since the beginning!

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ALONE

Posted on 31st August 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational

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1. separate, apart, or isolated from others: I want to be alone.

2. to the exclusion of all others or all else: One cannot live by bread alone.
3. unique; unequaled; unexcelled (to surpass; be superior to; outdo: He excels all other poetsof his day.)  He is alone among his peers in devotion to duty.
The perfect power of You!!
……………Alone…………..
At times I sit back and think, why is it that I love to be alone.
I believe that…… When a Woman is alone, we gain strength, prosperity in every given way, excitement, and confidence.
Women are extremely strong willed, especially those that have children.
When a Woman is alone, we gain a huge benefit in life that not everyone may be able to enjoy. We gain an inner strength to guard and guide us. We make the impossible possible. We maintain a tactful form. We are beautiful. We are powerful.
Strong Women are what drives men to improve things around him or maybe improving himself. Men are usually content alone unless they are needy, begging, and non-self driven and they must have someone to sustain them. They fit in the “I hate me category” listed below.
Strong Women have that energy no one can resist. We are seductive in many different ways. We carry that drive, both within us and around us. We are here to nurture and help those in need.
 ”Alone” is what converts woman like me!
Although there are woman that do not like to be alone. A woman that does not like to be alone is one that is driven by a man. One that cannot help herself nor her self esteem. She rely’s simply on a  man as she has no motivation nor drive to improve her skills.
A woman that uses herself to be with a man as she feels that she cannot be self reliant….., are ones that hate themselves, think they are ugly, always look at another girl to see what that girl has or what looks better than her, always feeling lonely and best of all , she never takes fault in anything she does as the truth hurts!
A woman that solely depends on a man is a woman that needs to re-asses her pain, guilt and fears.
Start to overcome them by realizing your dreams. ….
What do your dreams tell you??
Are they painful?
Are they Chaotic?
Are they calling for help in any way?
Is your mundane world upside down?
Nothing ever seems to work as they need too.
People are mean around you.
Gossip.
Drama, Drama and nothing but freakin DrAMA
Hateful remarks.
Negativity all around you.
A wish for a better change.
The need for a better mate.
(I love this last one… Remember, it will not happen unless you love yourself FIRST.. There will never be a better mate!!)
All these are signs of what you feel within you. These are signs that you need to see and realize around you so that you maybe able to improve what you need to alter within you.
If you keep doubting and hiding the truth within you, you are hurting yourself. Please do not get offended over reality. If you fit the “I hate myself category”, welcome to the “I hate me club” because there are so many of you out there! Don’t be afraid of truth, just realize it and fix it!
Being Alone was a beautiful gift, given to me by My Creator. My Creator new that I needed a huge transition so that I may be, who I am today.
I love myself and hope that you may as well..
May you be blessed in your journey!!
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Prison

Posted on 22nd August 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational, Self motivation

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A prison is not always what it seems to be, but an inner experience within ourselves.

When thinking about a prison, we seem to focus on a negative and black gloomy place. A place that only negative energy resides. It becomes an overwhelming feeling of sadness or confusion. This is the inner prison within us.

Everyone has an inner prison. We need to enter ourselves and start asking ourselves what we need to change or how different should we change our views. Instead of researching outward, lets start researching inward. We need to find our inner child and release it from its prison that we have enslaved it in. Mending our past and changing our future will release us from guilt, anxiety and resistance.

Being able to recognize and admit to our inner prison, is a huge step in your process. A process of  healing.

The inner healing is a process and will not be healed over night.

You will start to see your inner strength develop and become a stronger and more independent individual.

Your dependency starts to slim and you will feel as if you won the lottery overnight.

Working through our inner prison and mending our pain with self nurture, is the best remedy as this is a personal self adventure. Sometimes you will feel that you may need a mentor. Start researching books that you feel fit your interest. Start to explore more than your comfort level. You will see your inner mind expand and become powerful!!

I have recently come across  on a great inner strength revelation. The revelation  of my past inner state and current life strategy. Once you mend your prison and convert it into your safe haven, you will have personal revelations about yourself. You will see your inner beauty and you will grow like a beautiful flower!!

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Inner us

Posted on 21st August 2011 in Inspirational

I believe that everyone has a deep inner dark secret.

A inner dark secrets so deep that you yearn to be released,

but with the timidness of the world, it is kept in secret.

I feel that everyone has something to unravel or unleash at one time. Inner insecurities that shake your mind to the point that your feelings convert into guilt. Then your desires were just dissolved with crushed inner feelings and inner strength.

We all go through challenging things within our life. It is up to us to make that choice. A choice that battles and defeats our pain.

We all need to let loose at one time or another. We need to unleash the inner child within us. We need to release the awakening spirits within our bodies.

We feel whole again once we conquer our fears.

It is not taboo that we are all here reading my words on this blog.

We were all meant to inspire ourselves and become that person we always wanted to be.

Unleashing the power of creativity to its full capacity.

I at times feel that I am followed and attacked. I have been attacked mentally to give in to their society. I refuse to unleash my greatest gifts to those that do not deserve them.

I know that you will find my blog rather interesting but, I had a lot of inner growing. I am now free from the system and am able to live a peaceful inner me.

I have conquered my fears. I am very happy to finally realize what a true ride this has been.

We all should analyse and attune ourselves to who we are and live it as such. We are beautiful humane’s.

The “inner” is a gift.

This is a gift that needs to be nourished and cherished.

Cherish your inner beauty as I do mine . Let’s unite and be STRONG!!

 

 

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Unique

Posted on 9th August 2011 in Emotions, Inspirational, Misc, Self motivation

 

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I consider myself to be a Unique individual. One that loves life for what it is.

Although certain situations in life either differ to something beautiful or to something that is not as pleasant, I usually take things for what they are.

I rarely find myself getting mad at the world, people or situations. I find myself seeking why the actions happened the way they did. What I could have learned out of it. What was something I could do in the future to avoid a repeat of what had happened.

I see a lot of people dwell on their past. I see that people do not realize that they dont need to dwell on a past. Why spend more time on something that you cannot change or “Hoped” to be different. I believe that every person should make peace with their circumstances and situations.

I also see a lot of people looking for love in all the wrong places. I can honestly admit that I have gone through this trial and error in life. I can say that it was an interesting one. What I thought I once wanted, is not what I want now.
Love is something that you must learn. This is not something that we just jump into (Like most of us do). Love is an emotion that everyone enjoys feeling. The emotion of having a new person, New company, Attraction and that feeling of excitement. After we feel this feeling, little by little we start finding faults in people. We want to change them in some way to accommodate our feelings. The other person than gets tired of “acting” like another person. We allow our partner to change who we are .  Once we realize this point, we start to re-think our actions. we get bored and need change.  Routines start to settle in and we become slaves to each-other.

I believe and have experienced that, if you start degrading yourself (i.e “I’m Fat”,”I’m so ugly”, “S/he is better looking than me”) then you will start believing , what you are thinking. Insecurities and rebellion come to play. This means, You do not love yourself. If you cannot get up in the morning praising yourself and starting off the day telling yourself you look sexy, then you have no business looking for love. You need to start looking at what you are lacking within yourself BEFORE you can allow yourself to even think this way. In the past, i never really knew what loving myself truly meant. Heck, I thought everyone naturally loved themselves. Then I started to realize how negative I was and how verbally abusive I became to myself. This is when I realized my ugly truth.

 I see so many people that are only looking to purchase the latest fashions, or better clothing, or maybe simply to show off an expensive piece of luxury.

I believe that if everyone STOPPED, sat down, looked around and smelled the fresh air, we could finally see a beautiful creation. Analyse what is going on around us. See what we have been missing and what you are able to hear. Not everyone takes  a moment to chill. This is quite sad.

I believe that if we all took some time out to ourselves, not only would we start loving ourselves, but we would be less stressed in life. We would be able to enjoy what is around us and what we truly live for. We start to realize that we are slaves in this world, trying to make a living and paying our dues. We should not be our own slaves at home. This is the perfect time to have self love and stop the routines and stress in our lives.

Be yourself. Who cares what people think. Trust me, you will become the most attractive individual because now a days, no one likes phony people and there are a lot out there. Lets seperate ourselves from the “normal” world and become ourselves. Become one!!

Self power and self love!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Just for you, my king!

Posted on 20th July 2011 in Misc

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In life, we all need to be equal in some way. This is how the Universe works. We are programmed this way. We settle and live through it. Lets live beyond the settling and become one again.

We need to wake up and make a difference.

I am stronger.

 I am fearless.

I am detached.

I am awake.

I refuse to become a puppet like you.

Luxury is something that is temporary in life. It is something that we need to let go at one point in life. When Luxury becomes part of our lives, we lose ourselves in this mundane world. Luxury was made to distract who we are and why we are really here. We tend to look at materials as a necessity. We desire luxury as if it is something we worship. We are always looking to see what we can buy next or to looking better than someone else. Why is it that we are constantly seeking something that is from this material world? Be different from everyone else and be your own God. Be yourself again and feel free of the mundane world.

Once you start your own journey, you will see that you are unstoppable. You will see that you are worth more than what anyone could pay you. You are priceless.

Being self dependant, I can say that I have no need to trade myself into society. It seems, ever since I became a stonger, powerful, fearless, and loving , I have attracted so many people. I am like glue. But I refuse to settle. I know what I want and will have it. I am a strong believer. Everyone feels my positive powers. Powers gained within my inner heart. Powers that gave me confidence, Strength, and Intuition. Ego is dead in my world. Don’t be a  a puppet, A puppet, A puppet, A puppet, A puppet.

Once you are a puppet, you become a victim of society and materialism. Crystal children will cut down the strings to help you come back to whom you really need to be. You are not meant for this material world, But to be free. If you don’t want to be free, you are stupid and naïve. I apologize, however I am honest. We are powerful, we don’t need all this, we can have more than this. We are all settling for this world that has NOTHING to offer. Wake up and see the reality. Don’t let them fool you. I WAS TEMPORARILY FOOLED, but because society was made to confuse everyone so that they won’t know the truth. I search daily for THE SAME QUESTION WE ARE ALL ASKING!

The mundane world offers you a temporary pleasure. A pleasure that gives us headaches, in-stability, and disconnection from who we are. Why would you settle for something like this? Why would you not become a stronger and better you so that you may be limitless!

Luxury is not the only factor in what I am referring but, also goes with Beauty. Trying to perfect the already perfect. How can you perfect something that is already perfect??. You cant, it ends up looking weird and odd and we feel like a fool at the end. Larger organs or overusing what you have in an unsafe manner and telling everyone else to do the same. It seems low and shallow. It also seems that anyone that does that has insecurity issues that  need to search for and fix and Issues on who they really are. If you don’t want anyone to steal from you then, stop stealing from them! Its a vicious cycle. Maybe you should come see me and we can talk face to face about it sometime. :)

I love who I am, and I would not try to perfect something that was already made perfect. Besides, I will not take this body with me to Zion but my mind!

I am powerful and so are you. Lets join forces and become a bigger and better nation, under us.

Wake up and become one!!

 I shake the earth with my presence. I am the impact to most, I am the outlet for all.

Let’s play nice my King, before your Queen out smarts you!

Kiss the lips of awakening!!

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Confusion

Posted on 18th July 2011 in Emotions, Self motivation

Confusion is set within me.

I feel a desperate need to think with a clear head as thoughts start crossing my mind. Thoughts that make me feel as if I had no control.

I feel overtaken by everything that happens around me.

I start to realize that sometimes I need to clear the board again and start new. I know that I need to keep the good and delete the bad. It is hard for me to do that at times because emotions start to run through my veins. A deep silence within my heart and a pain that I cannot sustain. I see the hurt. The only thing crossing my mind is trying to heal the pain.

When I get hurt, I clam up and do not want to open up to anyone. I feel as if the world is closing on me and I have no room to breathe. No one to see. No one to even call upon.

I feel pain that has accumulated over the years and feel it has diminished.I feel as if I I have not learned a lesson because I allow this viscous cycle to happen. I need to put a stop to all the stupid nonsense that happens around me.

I have learned today, that confusion in my life is not all about feelings and emotional state, it is about not having the clarity I need to be able to find the foundation of the pain.

I  finally found the foundation of my pain. The healing process has started.

The foundation of my pain is something that I am working on.

Confusion is temporary, as long as we know how to control it.

Remember to  love yourself, Relax and be you!!

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