Reminding myself that life is not all about having love from another guy/girl. Its about how much I love me and my life. Reminding myself that the Universe will let create what needs to be.
At times, I feel as i am walking in a field. One that is so large all you see is land and wild flowers. The sky so blue that it looks like a dark crayon fill-in. The feeling of the huge hot sun. A warm spring breeze that tickles the skin.
I look at the beauty of Mother Nature. I feel free and happy. But when I look around, I am all alone. I have no one to share this beauty.
I start walking and with a sigh, I start to imagine someone with me. I imagine a strong handsome man. One that is confident with himself. He is a dreamer like me. He is streets smarts as well as head smart. He has these beautiful eyes that seduces me and has me lost within them. His soft skin and beautiful smile. You can see from afar that he is humble but strong. He loves challenge and diversity. He has weird ideas as I do. We are both loved by society but are pointed out as “Crazies”. He is open and crazy as I am. Has passion in his profession and supports me with mine.
I imagine us holding hands walking through the fields. He starts to tell me how his day went at work. He tells me these crazy stories of him and his buddies when they go out. He tells me the stories of what happened through-out the day and I tell him mine. As we walk we are laughing at our corny jokes and his weird sounds that he makes with his mouth.
As we walk he grabs a purple flower, Then another. He grabs them in a sneaky way so that I would not see. He stops walking. I slow down and stop and turn to him. I smile and ask, “Why did we stop”? He smiles and pulls me towards him. He takes the flowers he picked and slid the petals down my face. He grabs my hands and places the flowers there and holds them. He looks straight into my eyes and says, ‘You are what I have always been waiting for. You are exactly what I asked the universe for. I thank it everyday for finding you. I went through so much pain in this lifetime. I have suffered, I made wrong decisions. I have seen things that you could never imagine. But, I did these things because down deep in my heart, I knew I was going to be with you. I almost died once, but I felt a strong energy and it brought me back! I knew subconsciously it was from you. You are the doctor that has brought me back to life. I love you”. Tears are rolling down my eyes because deep down within my soul, hidden away, I felt the same emotions, turmoil, and loving spirit. I knew he is my Twin Flame.
I kissed him. It started out to me soft and genuine. He couldn’t contain himself and we started to kiss very passionately. He grabbed me very close. I could smell the sweet natural scent on his skin. I could feel his warm and firm body. It was a magical moment feeling blissful.
I opened my eyes and only realizing it was an image. I was taken away mentally.
Once I realized I was alone again, tears start to roll down my face. I realize that I feel full in life but I want to meet my Twin Flame.
I feel as if I am anxious to have the touch of that special person, that make the butterflies go wild in my stomach. I feel frustrated because this image is not in my current reality. I feel stagnant..
I sit here and realize that, I have so many friends that love me like family and their love is enough. I need them in this transition of my new path. This is the path I chose and I embrace it. I realized that things will happen at the perfect time. I have no rush, I have no deadlines nor am I in a race.
I will only wonder what my Twin Flame is thinking, feeling or if my Twin Flame is having a good day. I send loving and protection energy so that my Twin Flame will always be in the best care of the Universe.
I am waiting patiently for you, Twin Flame!
