Searching Lancelot

My Dearest Lancelot,

I send you kisses everyday. No matter where you are.

I wonder if you feel them touch your skin?

My obsession is you. You are the lifeline that keeps me uplifted and alive.

You are the one that fills my soul with love, energy and life.

You inspire my kids like no one has ever done. You took them under your wing and nurtured them as if you were their biological father. You teach them what life is about and how important it is to become a better them.

You have done more for us emotionally than anyone else in our lives. You care for us, you nurture us, you pamper us, and most importantly you love us unconditionally. We feel the pureness of your love. We feel the inner you.

The inner you is so beautiful. It is magic. One that cannot be explained, but felt.

When you are not with me, I feel you. I feel your energy. It is so pure and perfect. You are the perfect me, and I am the perfect you. We are as one and this is how love really should be. Its so pure that you dont know how to take it. A love with no limitations, no ego, no jealousy, only of Love.

Did you know that you are the one I send kisses too daily?

My lips pucker and softly releases kisses of pure, soothing and sexual energy. I sigh every time I release a kiss to you.

I wonder once the kiss touches your skin from afar, do you feel any sensations?

Do you realize that it is I sending you kisses?

Do I even cross your mind?

Answer me Lancelot, what do you feel, what do you think, what do you sense?

Remember my dear, It is the loving part of me, loving you in spirit.

I love you and I forever will!

Sincerly,

Guinevere

Life has a way to show itself in so many ways. It seems that when you at your most uplifted state, something has to come and bring you down.

Today is a day that I feel this way. I feel the agony all around me. I feel sorrow. I feel pain.

I feel like I am on a path that branched off . I suddenly took the wrong path without realizing it. Once I started this path, something didn’t feel right. It felt wrong to even look at it. The air feels so stale. The smell is detestable.

My energy slowly dies. I feel the love running out of my heart. I start to bleed all over my body as if I were stabbed millions of times over and over. My skin became rough. My mind is irrational. I feel a sense of pain thats within and spikes slowly shows its way out. You can see where the spikes are slowly coming out of my skin and blood starts to drop.

I know that this feeling is not normal. I know that I have to get out of this path as I am not used to it. I slowly turn around to get off it. It knows that I want out. It try’s so hard to pull me back in, but I know that if I stay, I will not make it. I know that even though it is draining my energy and the love pours everywhere, I have faith that I will stay with at least a drop of whats being drained.

I know that a drop will go a long way to help refill this all.

I have memories of my past. I have memories of the wounds. I have memories of what needs to be faded and diminished. I know that if I have made it this far, I will be able to make my way out of this path.

I often wonder how it would be to have endless passion. Would it be something that would take my life into a complete twirl within myself and around my soul, running through my veins then sinking into my skin and out through the hairs of my body?

Maybe the passion will connect with him when I am having the sexual connection. Instead of the passion having an exit through the hairs of my body it will go through his penis and into his cum, through his veins and within his blood that will penetrate through his muscles going through the skin. The skin will then revert the passion through the original path back into me.

The passion would last within us when we are connected. When we disconnect the intense affection, the passion will be still within us but mixed with the energies that was once in us in solitude. It will have us animated with the appetite we once needed and now fullfilled. Joy will trigger our emotions and have everlasting passion.

Can this be true?

Can this ever become a reality?

I am sure this is how passion must be, because I feel this is how it should be!

I needed to share this.. This is so beautiful.

This is how Lancelot and I will be, As one. Happy within ourselves and with us!!!

Enlighten me with something new. Something fantastic. Something that will brighten up not just my day but my life. I need some of your light in my life. Although the light in my life is always the same, I need yours to make it brighter. I need it to be something so powerful,that  my eyes will barely open. My hands would be the shade to help me see the power of your light.

I need you to enlighten my mind with your ways of thinking. Sometimes I only see what I know to see. With your inspirations in your mind, I need it to be enlightened with your intelligent ways of thoughts. Sometimes confusion enters into my mind and I need your thoughts to make mine smooth and with ease.

Your creations of ways to do things will enlighten my discoveries of ways much better. It will fully develop what I already know with something new and exciting. Knowing that I have you to enlighten me with your creativity make ways better and energizing.

Your love will enlighten me to have a better understanding of what true love is and means. The sense of having someone there to guide and protect me goes far beyond words. It stimulates my heart and has it in a thrilling bliss. A feeling only  true lovers and soul mates can only experience. Something that is a higher being, a higher level, a higher existence.

I know that you will enlighten me all ways, shape and form.

? I need you to enlighten me ?

I will play all the time with you. I will play and teach you to say my name at all times and hours of the day. You will be forever addicted to me and I will be a part of you. You will be astonished to how I will play with you. You will experience something that you have never felt in your life. I will make you my toy, the one that will play with me when I want too.

I will make you my boy Toy. You will be completely mine. You will love the way I will teach you things. I am sure you will want to teach me too as it goes both ways, but I assure you that the games I want to play are so delightful. Something that will be not normal. Something exotic, fun.. Something that will be carried with you through-out your life. You will wonder where I have gotten these ideas. I will smile and teach you my wild thoughts. My wild and crazy mind. Things that you will be dumb founded.

I am not comparable. I am something that cannot be described. Something that will place you in a daze.

I will have you under my spell. My own exotic spell, the one that you will want more of. You will never want it to expire. I will be the one that you will dream of. I will be the one that you will only think of. I will be the one that only you will want.

I will own you. I will own your thoughts. I will own your desires. I will own your dick. I will own your soul. You will wonder when you gave me the rights to you. But, you will not care. You only know that pleasures that I will give you. You will only want what I give you. You know that that I am truly a needle in the hay stack. I am what you always wanted.

I am here waiting for you!!

I am sitting here waiting for you. Arms open. Ready to receive everything you want to give me. I am here to be what you want me to be at any moment, any given time. I want you to have all the love, sex, attention, and the caring you need and deserve.

Will you be able to handle the intense love we will have?

You put this love within me, within my heart. I am here praying for you to come to me safely and ready.

I have so much to give you. I have a lot of passion. I have everything you could ever need.

I want to be your lover. I want you. I want to have your baby..

I want you so bad. I need you. I am waiting for you. To fulfill this burning sensation I have. The burning love I want to give you.

What will you do?

Tell me your dreams. Am I there?

Tell me your stories, your fantasies.

I want to make you fly and fill the passion you so need in your life.

Just love me, that is all I ask. Love me like you would your baby.

Justify me and my Love. Justify what is needed.

I pity the man that his pleasures depend, on the permission of another.

I want all of your wildest fantasies to come alive. I want you to have all the pleasures you deserve. I cannot express that enough. I want you to feel fulfilled within me and all over. I want you to be the king you need to be. The ruler of my hear. The ruler of my soul. The one and only.

I am not afraid of what will happen. I will receive it with such joy.I know you will too.

I want to make love to you everywhere. In the tree house, In the woods, In a train, in a bathroom, in a boat (That is hot), In a car, On the street. Anywhere we can make love, I want to do it with you.

I love you Lancelot and I always will!!

I lay on my bed thinking if you will be as amazing as my Angels say you will.

Sex for us will be the motions of our soul. The inner guidance of Us. The connection of our love. The demonstration of what we are. Two freaks that can NEVER stop. An addiction to each other. The cocaine we will need in every moment.

We will have the most amazing sex that you and I will never be able to experience with anyone else.

When I go down on you under the sheets, you will experience being in outer space. Able to touch the sky and feel as one. You will have complete ecstasy around you. Something in the unimaginable category.

When I kiss your body, you will feel the sensations and tingly of electric overpowering your body. Something that will control your skin and you will feel helpless.

When I fuck you, you will feel complete numbness of cocaine in your veins. You will let me do what I want  as you have no control and will want more of me. I will be your forever addiction.

When you cum, you will be in complete bliss. I will bring to you a new meaning to bliss. Something that you have thought of knowing in the past but this time around the bliss you will experience will be totally out of this world. Not only will we have passion but we will have love, ecstasy and the universe all tangled up in one and it will be the perfect moments of loving us.

When we have sex, I promise you that it will be totally Amazing.

I promise that you will want more of me as I will always want you.

We are Amazing together and forever will be!!

I ask that you love me when I am gone.

Gone by your side, away from your warm body, and when you cannot see me.

I want you to love me the most when I am not by your side. I want you to feel me, hear me and see me in your mind when we are apart. I want you to NEVER feel alone as I am always with you. No matter what you do, where you go, I am always with you.

When I am with you we are one and always love. We have the physical touch, scent and emotions running loose and we are overly excited and filled with love. We feel it, we know it is there.

When I am not at your side this is when I need you to be at your strongest. This is when I need you to love me more than ever as I don’t want you sad, feeling alone, or down. This is what I do NOT want.

I want you to love me when I am not at your side so that you can have that peace and loving feeling with you always.

Baby, when I am gone.. Love me the most, when I am with you cherish the moments.

You are the ghost I am chasing.

You are the one I am waiting for. You are the one that I live day to day.

I need you. I only think about you.

I often wonder why I cannot seem to find you. Why is it so hard to have you in my arms. Why is it that you have not appeared in front of me?

All I can think of is that it is not our time and I have to be patient.

I am alone. I need a warm body next to me.

I need to feel you, touch you and fuck you.

I know i can see you, feel you and fuck you but only in my dreams at night.

When I lay in bed, I am excited to sleep, just so that I can have you in my arms.

I miss you when I wake up.

But, I know that when I go to sleep at night, I will have you once again!

I am truly in search of a ghost, but this is OK. I know I will find you and you will be with me once again.

I call apon my Angels so that they will fly to where you are and hand deliver you to me.

I want you to arrive safe and I know with my Angels, you will arrive without a scratch.

I love you Lancelot